goodbye chris....

its soooo sad!!!! the guy that i hope will win this round American Idol.... was in the bottom 2 and do not hv enuf votes to stay on.... what a pity!!! he was talented and consistent the whole way but maybe luck is not at his side.... everybody thot he will be the final 2... even simon cowell pun cam ter"stunt" when the results are out... but, what to do kan...

no worries.... he's very2 talented and everybody can see that... he'll get offers for his own record soon.... i know even without the AI title, he will go far....

takde mood nak tgk american idol dah... everyweek i look fwd to see chris perform... now, no more chris... sob! sob!.... no more that deep, sexy, husky voice.... i shall wait for ur 1st album chris...

so, this entry is a tribute to u.... CHRIS DAUGHTRY....

Thanx mum!!

tomorrow is mother's day... well, actually we dont need to wait for Mother's Day to show appreciation and gratitude... but sometimes we dont realise that we actually take our mother for granted... slalu jer buat dia terasa hati... direct or indirectly... so, today.. i'm gonna do it formally in my blog... dedicated entry for the person who has done so much in my life...

i think without me realising it, my character building is very much influenced by her... her principles and stand in life.... growing up watching her strength to bring up the 3 of us has teach me a lot in facing difficulties in life... when we were small, she will try her very best to provide all that we need; even forgotting her needs... asalkan we all adik beradik grew up a normal life..

i was not close to her before... we had the same birth month... kalau ikut arwah nenek i dulu... relationship we all "panas"... alwiz disagree with each other... what she say, i'll do the opposite... maybe also bcoz i was close to my dad before the divorce... agaknya masa tu as a child, you dunno how to release your anger & confusion wif whats happening surrounding you... i end up becoming the "problem " child ... alwiz try to be far away from home.. rasa tak sedih pun bila kena pegi belajar jauh2... how immature kan..

as i grow older, esp masa kat UK... baru la pandai nak get close to her... mungkin sbb jauh... baru rasa thankful for all the things she has done before... dulu tak pandai nak appreciate; masa kat jb she would come and visit me almost every mth... driving fr kl to jb on sat (sbb masa tu cuti jb and kl tak sama) ... after subuh to reach jb by lunch and then ptg tu drive back to kl... dah la masa tu hway tak siap lagi... bawak food penuh kereta... thats how she is... not only feed her daughter but also the whole gang... heh...

tp i yg degil ni slalu la buat decision yg against her consent... i rasa tak tahu la dah berapa byk kali she got her high blood pressure bcoz of me... esp abt my love life la... i guess she wants me to hv a better life than her... well, mak mana yg tak nak... the thing that i appreciates most is how she tried not to barge into my private life but when i'm at my lowest point in my life... she'll be there and try giving her support indirectly... even when i've made the worst mistake, no blame word comes out of her... only positive words to push me fwd to face the future...

now we r closer... we go shopping, watch movie, gossipping... heh... most of my weekend i spend at home... maybe trying to replace all those time before... nway, she's getting old... i know she wants soooo much to see me settle down and hv my own family... i hope i can fulfil that wish cepat2... i wish God will provide me the means, energy and rezeki to provide her all the things that she dream to hv masa dulu2 (yg she sacrifice to provide for us)... i hope i will hv the strength and the patience (and a very understanding husband) to take care of her bila dia dah tak larat nanti...

mmg kalau nak ikutkan we cant afford to repay what our mother has done for us... terlalu banyak... well, who i am today partly is mould by her... my strength, compassion, the way i view life, the way i bring myself... all thanx to her.. and i'm really sorry that i alwiz find a way to hurt ur feelings... but, as a mother u'll alwiz find a part in ur heart to forgive me... i hope i'll be like you when i hv my own kids later... i know i've learn so much fr u without you realising...


THANK YOU MAMA FOR EVERYTHIN........

my new addiction...

besides obsession on my weight (heheh) ... i've got a new addiction... ni my brother la yg dok introduce... but, i think its the "in" puzzle game in town... well, what else... SUDOKU ler.... :D

mula2 tu cam tak berapa minat sbb tak tahu main... then when my bro at home, dok tgk la dia buat puzzle tu... and mcm senang jer... he taught me the rules and the trick... after a few games, bila dah dapat hang of it... keeup on trying one after another... its really a mind challenge... look simple but u really hv to use ur logical thinking... sapa yg terror probability should be good in this... bila dah sampai stage yg susah tu... imagine u hv filled up 95% of it and then suddenly realise somewhere along the line ada numbers yg salah coz u cant complete the puzzle.... kena la start again from scratch... tu yg bengang tu... but, the competitive side of u just wouldnt wanna let it go and stop... so, end up try again... and again... sampai dapat la...

to ppl who are clueless abt what i'm saying... below are some short explanation abt the game...
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From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia


Sudoku , also known as Number Place, is a logic-based placement puzzle. The aim of the puzzle is to enter a numerical digit from 1 through 9 in each cell of a 9×9 grid made up of 3×3 subgrids (called "regions"), starting with various digits given in some cells (the "givens"); each row, column, and region must contain only one instance of each numeral. Completing the puzzle requires patience and logical ability. Although the puzzle was first published in a U.S. puzzle magazine in 1979, it initially caught on in Japan in 1986 and attained international popularity in 2005.

GAMEPLAY

The puzzle is most frequently a 9×9 grid, made up of 3×3 subgrids called "regions" (other terms include "boxes", "blocks", and the like when referring to the standard variation; even "quadrants" is sometimes used, despite this being an inaccurate term for a 9×9 grid). Some cells already contain numerals, known as "givens" (or sometimes as "clues"). The goal is to fill in the empty cells, one numeral in each, so that each column, row, and region contains the numerals 1–9 exactly once. Each numeral in the solution therefore occurs only once in each of three "directions" or "scopes", hence the "single numbers" implied by the puzzle's name.

try it.... its fun!!!

my love for food...

... i noticed that there are a lot of interesting websites and blogs abt one's hobby... some of them even make their hobby into $$-making career... mcm wedding photojournalism

i was thinking along the line... bukan la nak shift career but to take my hobby seriously... i love cooking... for the same reason... I LOVE FOOD!!!! ada my fren dulu pernah kata, "camner la nak kurus, when only food lingers in ur mind"... i am passionate abt food, i can talk abt the food i like for hrs and hrs and hrs.... the taste, the smell, the color, the after-taste... apa2 la... sbb tu i suka berjalan2 dan mencari makan... heh

i'm not the choosy type... i regard myself quite adventurous in terms of food coz i don't limit my choices... i guess i'm the kind yg tak kisah berhabis on food if i feel its worth-it... i like cooking and see others enjoy eating what i cook.... spend hrs in the kitchen and my sweat is repaid when i see everythin's gone from the table...

i guess all those comes naturally in my family... family yg suka makan.... basically, makan je all the time... salah satu syarat nak masuk my family is to be able to REALLY EAT!!! heh... if u see all of them, u'll know the reason kenapa sorang2 besar cam "giant"... heh.. well, arwah nenek i yg train camtu... nak buat camne kan.. she's a great cook... and she'll cook each and everyone's fav dish when we go balik kampung.. all by herself.. dulu2 even coffee yg we all minum semua homemade... kuih2 tu tak payah cakap la... my arwah grandfather is very particular abt food... everything kena fresh... lauk tak boleh ulang-ulang.. really miss those old days *sigh*...

so, for my love of food... i'll be creating a special blog on F.O.O.D ... so, its gonna be anything relating to food... my eating out experience, recipes, cooking tips... etc... etc... etc...

so, tunggu dan lihat yaaaa.....
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update: the blog is up.... can either click "Bon Apetite" on the right hand side or go to

Alimento bueno... Personas felices... Para lo que más le puede pregunta?

what can u say...

... red face, fast heartbeat... and jadi kalut mcm apa jer... hmmm.... nay!!!... u're not having a crush... not at this age!!!! but, hey... what can u say right... heheh

actually there's this guy who works on the same floor (not same co though) that i like to look at... ONLY LOOK AT ok... no more than that.... bumped into him a few time... well, we work at the same floor kan.... but, just exchange glance and thats it ler... he's not really gorgeous or what... biasa jer but nice to look at... muka tak serabut... mcm ada calming effect... which i think makes him outstanding in the crowd... dunno whether he's married or not... or attached to anybody.. but, has seen a ring on his left hand... sure dah taken... tp takpelah... admire jer kan..

tadi, turun bawah nak beli coffee... masa keluar pintu tu nampak dia pun keluar gak... and he's also going towards the lift.... hmmm... imagine just the 2 of us in the lift... can only see his reflection kat pintu lift tu... the world seems extremely quiet... i just hope masa tu i won't embarrassed myself like i did before.. and at the same time i also wish i have that courage to say hi and start a conversation... or even to smile...

so... the opportunity just run by ler... for the xx many times dah... i'll be surprise with myself if i actually make that first move with a total stranger... coz its wayyyyyyy out of my character... dah la awak tu perempuan... mcm tak malu jer nak tegur guys camtu... but ppl say skarang ni dah modern... if u don't grab the chance, u may loose it.... hmmm...

is this why i'm still single till now?? ntah ler ekkk....

Because .....

why do we celebrate Mother's Day... (from Pod's & Petals newsletter)

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Because I've known you all my life.
Because a black BMX bicycle once made me the happiest boy on the street.
Because you used to dance with me in the kitchen with an apron round your waist.
Because your cheque book was always busy on my behalf.
Because our house was always filled with laughter and the smell of spices.
Because of countless Saturday mornings you gave up to watch a small boy play football.
Because you never expected too much of me or let me get away with too little.
Because of all the nights you sat reading to me at my bedside while I lay sleeping.
Because you never embarrassed me by talking about the birds and the bees.
Because I know there is a faded newspaper clipping in your purse about my scholarship.
Because you always made me polish the heels of my shoes as brightly as the toes.
Because you've remembered my birthday 30 times out of 30.
Because you still hug me when we meet.
Because you've more than your fair share of grey hair and I know who helped put them there.
Because you're a marvelous grandmother.
Because you made my wife feel one of the family.
Because you've always been there when I've needed you.
Because you let me make my own mistakes and never once said "I told you so."
Because you still pretend you only need glasses for reading.
Because I don't say thank you as often as I should.
Because it is Mother's Day and I LOVE U VERY, VERY MUCH....

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY to all mothers and mother-to-be...

Farewell

Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun...

yesterday i received sms fr an old fren bringing a shocking news about the demise of our dear classmate, Norbahiah Lani from a tragic accident... from the info gathering, it was reported that her car swerved to avoid goats and then hit a tree... the front passanger (cousin of our classmate) also died and the other 2 passangers sitting at the back seat are in critical condition.. the news came out in tv3 morning news yesterday... jenazah was brought back to her hometown in melaka to be burried..

semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg beriman dan beramal soleh... AL Fatihah


news like this really makes me think abt life and realise how fragile and precious life is... when the time has come it will not wait even for a micro second... who would anticipate that your life ends at a very young age... at the age where life has just begun... career, family..

when tragedy happens in one's life, we will start evaluating our priorities... whats more important.... is money and position more important than time spent with ppl u love??? or time spent with frens more important than ur own flesh and blood??? hmmm... priorities, priorities... how do u know if u've made the right decision... we usually don't realise what we've lost until its too late... but, i guess there's price to everythin... just how far are u willing to sacrifice to get it...

i guess my perception towards "SUCCESS" has change this past years... its deeper than just having a good career and family... its more on self respect and self development and how my actions will help benefit others... its no longer things that i've achieved for myself but how my life indirectly affects others positively...

its funny how in our current time its really a challenge to do good deeds whilst becoming arrogant and selfish is becoming part of the lifestyle... i hope before my last breath, i hv the courage and strength to do all the good deeds that i plan to do and make a difference in ppl's life... InsyaAllah

confuse

hmmm.... confuse with this blogger actually... i've posted one entry but its not out... kena click "April 2006" baru keluar.... why yer??? hmmm... me and technology... not good frens... heh..
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update: its doing it again... still not successful... confuse 3x

tried again for the 3rd time... giving up this time... dunno la whats the problem..

What element is your love??

came accross this website while surfing the net.... kinda interesting... u know me... suckers of all this analysis kind of thingy... hehe...

Your Love Element Is Water

In love, you connect deeply and commit totally.For you, love is all about taking risks and moving into unknown territory. You attract others with courage and confidence.Your flirting style is defined by your flexibility and ability to adapt. Nurturing and shared learning are the cornerstones of your love life.And while you may jump in to love too quickly, you always come out the wiser for it. You connect best with: Metal Avoid: Earth You And another Water element: will pull each other down into a dark place

... so, it says i need to find a "metal" person (mcm mat metal jer bunyinya...heh)... so, sesapa yg "metal" tuh..... don't forget to contact me after this ya... muahahahha.... mcm real jer..

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