A nite with Annuar Zain

puas hati beb!!!! hehehe.... i don't think i need to say much more...

complicated?

i love avril lavigne song "complicated" tu... maybe it does remind me of myself... i do think outside i look like a very ordinary normal person.... but, inside... so very d complicated... hehhe...

i've learn a lot - relationship wise.... but somehow why can't i see where i'm heading... why do i keep choosing the winding road with no ending?! i questioned myself a lot on this... at times trying to rationalise my actions... why can't i just accept a straight fwd love life... why do i keep going back to complicated life... i guess i've been facing so many issues in life all this while.. and when sumthin good and "normal"... i freaked out... why i can't just accept that life is sometime simple and i do deserve to be happy..

well, i do not know where this is heading... and i do not know if i'm accepting the situation bcoz i'm tired to fight and axplore the world... and i do not know if i'm doing this bcoz ppl around me thinks its the right thing to do... what i know i'm giving myself a chance... whether its going to bring me happiness or not... i do not know... but, life is all abt taking risk isn't it... hopefully when the time comes i'll make the right decision :)

its already march... waaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

can u believe it... its already March!!!! God!!! time flies so fast.... can't believe it!! there's so much that i wanted to do but hv not started yet... i guess now if u want to do sumthin... just go ahead and do it... don't wait... u might not get the same chance again... so, i've started one already... we'll just see if i manage to achieve my target or not in few mths time... tungguuuuuuuuuuu!!! hehehehe....

Old tradition never dies

went back to kampung today... accompanying my mum to one of our relative's kenduri kawin... i'm not really sure how we are related as it sounded very complicated when she tries to explain to me when i ask...

it has been awhile since i attend a kampung wedding... and i really love it!!! i guess i missed the dos that we used to have at our grandfather's place when we were small... my uncle's weddings... when there's a wedding, the house will be packed with ppl even 1 week before the day... neighbours coming around to see what they can help on.. bringing sugar, potatoes, onions, milk etc etc etc... u can really feel the festive mood in the air... we call this "rewang"... everybody in the village will come in to give a helping hand without even being asked... siap ada jawatankuasa... sapa yg jaga masak2, sapa yg jaga tetamu... everything being discussed and plan together... no wonder org kat kampung rapat macam family... i saw that just now... the rewang... the old ppl will sit in front to usher guests... and the ladies will be busy making sure guest have enuf to eat...

its so diff.... food was great... home cook kan... mmg sedap!! there's no big tents with coloured scallops... not even flowers to decorate the place... only smiling faces welcoming u.... hmmm... its good that this tradition are still being practiced... not many village or places actually does this anymore... well, including my family... most ppl now uses catering for their events... sekarang bukan semua org nak tolong kan... furthermore, semua org pun busy with their on lives...

but, it is sure fun attending one wedding like that... well whatever it is tak kisah la rewang ke catering ke.., yg penting is having all your family and frens around you during your big day... kan?!! hehehhe...

Hello 2008!!!!

hehehehe.... lama ekkk tak post kat sini.... well, apa lagi alasan.... busy, busy and busy.... hmmmm... takde alasan lain ke... but, hey!!! thats good right... busy with office work yg never ending... business is picking up... we are getting more orders from other ppl besides frens & family.... and we can even see that we are pregessing and improving in our deliverables... Alhamdulillah!!!

so many things happen in 2007... i think i've achieved what i target except for 2 things... i still hv not found my other half and i'm still not losing the weight .... so, new yr resolution kena tukar la this time.... to hv a more balanced life.... i know this is general... covers all aspects.. work, family, social life, ibadat and also hv more time for myself... enjoy life and God's creation...

i think at times i've been pushing myself above the limit.. well, we're not getting any younger... kalau dulu boleh keje straight tak tido, sekarang still boleh... tapi pastu demam... hahahah....

it has been tiring to keep thinking if this guy walking past thru my life is the one... sometimes i do wonder what did i do wrong that others has done right... wonder if i've not done enuf... but, then i realise.... ni semua beyond ur control.... the more u think abt it, the more u get frustrated... so, whatever it is.... i will not loose hope to find love... appreciate what i hv and what i hv encountered thru the 31 yrs journey... i hope 2008 will bring better things into my life... more happiness, contentment and peace... also good health and a blessed life... i guess its still not too late to welcome 2008...

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR GUYS!!!

p/s: another new resolution - will try to blog more this yr... :)