complicated?

i love avril lavigne song "complicated" tu... maybe it does remind me of myself... i do think outside i look like a very ordinary normal person.... but, inside... so very d complicated... hehhe...

i've learn a lot - relationship wise.... but somehow why can't i see where i'm heading... why do i keep choosing the winding road with no ending?! i questioned myself a lot on this... at times trying to rationalise my actions... why can't i just accept a straight fwd love life... why do i keep going back to complicated life... i guess i've been facing so many issues in life all this while.. and when sumthin good and "normal"... i freaked out... why i can't just accept that life is sometime simple and i do deserve to be happy..

well, i do not know where this is heading... and i do not know if i'm accepting the situation bcoz i'm tired to fight and axplore the world... and i do not know if i'm doing this bcoz ppl around me thinks its the right thing to do... what i know i'm giving myself a chance... whether its going to bring me happiness or not... i do not know... but, life is all abt taking risk isn't it... hopefully when the time comes i'll make the right decision :)

its already march... waaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

can u believe it... its already March!!!! God!!! time flies so fast.... can't believe it!! there's so much that i wanted to do but hv not started yet... i guess now if u want to do sumthin... just go ahead and do it... don't wait... u might not get the same chance again... so, i've started one already... we'll just see if i manage to achieve my target or not in few mths time... tungguuuuuuuuuuu!!! hehehehe....