the reception

at last.... its finally over... the anxiety, stress ... semua la.... mcm la dia yg jadi pengantin... hehehe... tp jadi pengapit pun sama stress tau.... it was a really beautiful reception... kira theme for the nite is gold la... the backdrop was merah hati ... pelamin is combination of gold and off-white... she's wearing off-white... we wore gold... my baju match nicely ngan baju best man... nasib baik... hari tu kan main beli jer... cantik tak?? kilat2 sket ada labuci... but its really simple actually... kain based dia satin... tu yg nampak gemuk tuh... tension.. tension... pasni kena kuruskan lagi badan... before ur own wedding..

i'm really happy that she had found somebody... masa rehearsal tuh i can see that he loves her so much... and they complement each other... she has gone thru a lot before meeting him... its good that they are together now... one example of a successful match-make... Alhamdulillah... met up old frens... some faces yg mmg dah lama tak jumpa... most are frens fr a-level dulu...

smalam we all tak cukup corrum... there are 5 of us yg close... kira dalam grp tu i yg baru la... coz the 4 of them mmg close since mrsm... i'm close to them masa a-level... then we r seperated bila masuk univ... but still in close contact... now, everybody has chosen their seperate ways... but when we meet the bonding is still there... one in jb, married with 2 kids... one in kl, married and expecting, ... one in kl, married and still trying hard... the bride, just married... and finally... there's me.... single, available and still searching for mr right...

one baby step at a time... full with hope & faith ..

so now... there's only me left... i know i'll find him someday... just hv to be patient... sometimes i do feel tired.. getting to know somebody new... trying to understand them and build the trust... but, when u finally are there... there bound to be sumthin wrong... and the relationship will end just like that... and so does the frenship.. that makes it sad actually... bcoz all my relationship are form from close frenship... i guess i'm more comfortable like that... coz i know that they love me for my ownself... they knew me during the best and the worst of time...

now, its difficult to actually get to know somebody without giving the impression that u're lokin for a serious relationship... it builds up the pressure... for both side... for now, match make doesnt seem to work just yet... belum ada jodoh kan....

"Ya Allah, kau pertemukanlah aku jodoh yg baik untukku, dunia dan akhirat. Pertemukanlah kami dalam keredhaanMu. Semoga aku mendapat suami yg penyayang dan bertanggungjawab, yg dapat membimbingku ke jalanMu Ya Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin."

taking the leap of faith...

...taking the leap of faith... hmmm.... actually, taking that saying from a fren.. a good fren of mine is getting married tomorrow and guess who is the bridesmaid... M.E.!!!!!! muahahahhaa... terasa lawak kan.. tak pernah jadi pengapit before2 this... dah la dia buat yg grande style... mak datuk!! i pulak yg ada cold feet... gabra habis nih... kena la pi buat manicure, padicure & eyebrow... cheh!! alasan sebenarnya... heheh

ntah la ... some say its not good to become a bridesmaid when u're single.... takut lambat kawin... but then on the other hand, they say its a step towards getting married urself!! so, i pun tak tahu yg mana satu nak dengar... coz ada gak my frens yg jadi bridesmaid, dah kawin dah pun... well, apapun... jodoh, ajal dan maut tu semuanya ketentuan Tuhan... tak macam tuh..

oh yes.. coming back to the "leap of faith" thingy... i guess sometimes we thot that we know our partner well enuf... but when sumthin happen, we start to question our belief... actually we wont be able to understand somebody 100%... u're lucky if u even know them 50% of the time... coz ppl tend to change based on their environment.... somebody can be so nice, so sweet and charming in the beginning and become the total opposite when circumstances changes... sbb tu ler kawan i ni kata getting married is actually taking the leap of faith.... coz u're actually taking the risk not knowing what will happen in the future... but what doesn't involve taking risks... everything in life is abt taking risks... what makes it different is the level of risk...

crab.... crabby.... ??

its past 12 midnite now.... but cant really close my eyes.... i'm really2 tired but the mind cant jez stop spinning... so, what do u do when u cant sleep??? ppl say reading helps... but i would think it would jez induce the mind to think further... scientifically ppl say drinking milk helps.... nayyy... it would just make me fat..

hmmm.... i would love to just look at the sky.... looking at the stars... my dream room will hv a glass window on my roof... just above my bed... so that at nite i can see the stars.... i know its not practical... thats why ppl say its a "dream room"... how cool will that be, huh!! lets imagine.... heh

N? S? E? or W? where's ur life heading??

i do think astrology is interesting.... learning abt the cosmic, planets and how it affects our everyday life... even now i'm a zodiac freak... hehehhe.... alwiz trying to figure out ppl's behaviour and connect them to their birth star... i dont believe in fortune telling but i do believe diff zodiac has diff behavioural attributes.... i guess by knowing their common attribute it helps me to understand another human being better... dunno how true is that but it works with me every time....

what's ur zodiac???? me..... i'm the CRAB... cancer...

trying out photography

bought the digital camera before bali trip... so, trying a hand in photography... camera tu semua dah automatic, so kira senang la jugak... jez sharing some of my fav shots when i was in sabah... all are taken using olympus IR-300..

my mum loves orchid... these pixs are taken for her collection..

sunset kat mabul island



pemandangan perkampungan kat pulau mabul

mount kinabalu from afar..

life a paradox??

..i was driving thru federal hiway one evening, going thru the jam... masa tu kira dah senja... the sun was going down indicating that the day is over... sky was clear so u can actually see the orange, then red light.. on the blue sky... at that moment, time frooze... i suddenly realised that going thru my busy schedule... i've missed all the wonderful and beauty of God's creation... a simple thing like a sunset... yelah... u're basically in the office more than 12 hrs a day... u leave at wee hr of the morning and the time u're home the sun has gone...

i guess we no longer hv the luxury of time to appreciate even the smallest things that happen around us... does time flies rather quickly.. or.. we are to engrossed in getting the material luxuries of the world.... nobody has the answer... time flies so fast that u cant even enjoy the luxury that u hv.... when u hv that time later... it maybe too late... but, if u dont work hard now... then when?? i guess u dont wanna be left behind... but, to what extent are all this worthwhile... the stress... the headache... missing time with family n frens?? thats when the famous word B.A.L.A.N.C.E kicks in...

but then again... where's the lign... how much is enuf?? i guess by the time our lives end, there's still no correct answer... i think it depends on ur life's goal... ur end destination... what do u want to achieve in life? be it wealth, fame or love.... that's where success is measure.. life itself is a paradox.... wanting one thing will lead having to sacrifice another... maybe there are ppl who are lucky to get all...

however, the problem arise when u dont really know what u want... so, the surrounding's become ur benchmark... u'll try to please others or want to be seen as part of the system... afraid to be different... hence, will fail most of the time.. not to be in the "crowd" is difficult... we do face this in our everyday life... having to speak up or make the right decision.. i hope i'll hv the strength and preserverance to be at the right path at all time... God willing!!

negeri di bawah bayu.... part 1

asyik keje jer... so, last Sept we've decided to go to sabah... ye ke decided... or perhaps more of an impromptu decision made masa kat matta fair... hehehe.. this booth showing pixs of an island... and generally me being so mesmerized looking at them... so, plus minus... discuss here and there... end up paying deposit for the trip... supposed to go only to Mabul Island (thats the name of the place in the pixs)... ended up planning to visit like 3/4 of sabah..

so, in Sept before the monsoon starts we were flying to my D.R.E.A.M island.. thanx to Air Asia... muaaahhhhhsss... and so, the journey begins...

ok.... the flight was fr klia to tawau.. then abt an hr journey to semporna... then abt another hr boat ride to mabul... luckily the day was bright... so, takde la mabuk laut sangat... mabul ni pulau yg dekat ngan sipadan tuh.. but nowadays sipadan is only open for diving tp tak leh stay kat situ... so this resort is the place divers will stay... amongst all we're the only non-divers there... org lain semua dtg nak dive... i nak dive??? berenang pun tak tahu... hehehehe... so, check out the place man!!!

.. the room is sooo cool... its generally facing the sea... kira cam tgk sini laut... tgk sana laut... everywhere la laut.... the water is so clear that you can see what lies beneath... coral reefs, fishes... the small one of course... the view was breathtaking... these are views from the room...




nice right... i've alwiz receive pixs of other islands... slalunya outside m'sia la.... but, after the trip... i know that i dont hv to go far now to experience the beauty... just to caution one thing... bilik dia ada the basic ammenities but NO tv.... NO ENTERTAINMENT of that sort... told u... ppl are here to dive...

thats me.... resting... after a day walk.... waiting for the sun-set...

we are there for 3 days only... enuf time to explore the island... kecik jer... manage to see local ppl... how they live and such... tourism actually gives them source of income... btw, food was yummy.... the whole time... its all seafood... n seafood... n seafood... sapa yg tak mkn seafood... rugi ler.. hehehe... it was plenty and tasteful... tp cam kelakar je.... u can actually see kat dining area tuh... u're the only non-divers kat situ... malu jer...

this is my final destination.... LAND!!!!!

oh well, eventho tak masuk dlm air... tp still boleh nampak some of the sea creatures...

these are a few of my fav things.....

..amongst all the things in the world, what do u like most??? i guess if u're asked to list this down.... its gonna be a very.. very.. very long list!! Hmmm, what will be in my list..... let me see...

.. view from above...

... thats klcc from darby park... taken fr the top floor... nice huh... trying out my new camera actually... jez cant imagine how fast time flies... and how things around you change... and how ppl around u change. But, i guess thats life... i've changed a fair bit too.... size wise.. hehehe... lotss of things has been happening this past yrs... and i think i'm wiser now... lottsss more to experience...

hello!!!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim... 1,2,3.... first try...... HELLO!!!

... hehehhe.... cam tak tahu je apa nak tulis... well, this will be my personal journal... on my thots on things happening around me... pasal apa-apa pun la.... if anybody else read thru... hopefully it will benefit them one way or another... so, i'll have fun writing... hopefully others will enjoy reading.... so, here it goes....