arghhhhhhh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

marahnyaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! i was so pissed off yesterday... ngan ***bank... my loan officer suddenly call and ckp ada problem pasal my credit card... apparently i'm being blacklisted bcoz of my cr card overdue debts... pikir2 yg mana satu... semua tak jive.... suddenly remember pasal this one card yg the bank dah pre-approve tp i tak ambik... check punya check, confirm its relating to that.... apalagi, terus ler angkat telefon and ask them to explain... dah la they don't take u seriously when u call and make complaints... and now this!!!! thats too much laa.... habis angin satu badan... heh...

pagi2 lagi tadi dah draft complaint letter... siap mintak legal advice from x-lawyer fren lagi... dont wanna put down the wrong thing kan.... dah fax and still awaiting their response... by lunch, dah cool sket la....

lesson learnt:
- alwiz do things in writing; do not depend on phone call to CSR... not so effective
- when u get pre-approve cards, alwiz reply in writing when u decline
- alwiz pay cr card bill on time every mth.. they will accumulate ur mths in arrears till you discontinue ur card usage... this will affect ur credit rating... determine if u're a good/bad paymaster

apapun.... nowadays, hv everythin in writing.... coz u never know whats gonna happen in the future.... i've learn my lesson... cr cards may be convenient, but its also a menace if u dont ctrl ur debt... i'll try to be a cash person fr now onwards...
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update: got a letter from the bank after 2 weeks... with their sincere apologies and promised to uplift my name from being blacklisted.... well, Thank God.... but this lesson really taught me to be careful next time and just not take things for granted...

Tiada Lagi.....

Tiada Lagi -Amy search

Sia-sia saja...
Kita jalin cinta
Bila hati selalu berbeda

Sampai kapan lagi
Aku harus menahan
Rasa kecewa di dalam dada

Seandainya kita masih bersatu
Tak mungkinkan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta
Biarkan saja berakhir sampai
Di sini

Tiada lagi yang ku harapkan
Tiada lagi yang ku impikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa diri mu
Tiada lagi kata cintamu
Takkan lagi ku bersama mu
Biar ku simpan semua
Kenangan ku bersamamu...

Smile!!!!

Have a good weekend everybody......!!!

hopelessly devoted to you.....

Guess mine is not

The first heart broken

My eyes are not the first to cry

I'm not the first to know

There's just no getting over you

I know I'm just A fool who's willing

To sit around and wait for you

But baby can't you see

There's nothing else for me to do

I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide

Since you pushed my love aside

I'm out of my head

Hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you My head is saying

Fool forget him

My heart is saying don't let go

Hold on to the end

And that's what I intend to do

I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's no where to hide

Since you pushed my love aside

I'm out of my head

Hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you

reminiscence of john travolta and olivia newton in GREASE... which was bring to life again last nite in its musical play... the famous danny zuko and sandy dancing and singing in 50's outset...

yesterday was the 1st time i was in kl convention center... dah la sampai betul2 pukul 8.30... kelam kabut la jugak... this time it was handle by an event co called Yvents!, a new established event co... i dunno why they choose KL convention instead of istana budaya... but, the place was HUGE!!!!... with very modern design... rather impressive... ngan penyambut tetamu la... one of m'sia's great architecture...

ok... now abt the show... what shall i say... ok la.... so-so... but, i think i like istana budaya better... its more theatre frenly... kat plenary hall tuh... stage kecik sket and the hall is HUGE... yg tak bestnya dia takde control room... so org yg jaga sound tu was placed in the middle of the hall kat walkway... its quite distracting jugak la... cahaya from the computer tuh... ambience dia tak rasa mcm tgk theatre.. more of cam tgk concert... sbb tu prefer istana budaya punya outset..

anyhow, the dancing and singing was thumbs up... suara sorang2... pergh!! power!!! 2 hrs seems like a breeze... mcm tak puas jer tgk... i took some video clippings, but don't know how to put it here....

some pix taken during the show..

upgrade...upgrade... spend... spend..

i'm thinking of upgrading my camera... from a compact camera to prosumer... not that soon la... earliest pun maybe end of the yr la... ish, ish... byknya dalam to-buy-list ni....heh..

but, nway... the intention comes abt after my cameron trip... i took lots of flower pixs... its so leceh la sbb camera kecik kan... sket2 goyang... esp bila nak ambik gambar bees yg tgh ambik madu bunga tuh... my God, terpusing2 tangan nak ambik shot... manage to do it though... and pix turn out ok la... not so bad... but looking at those pix i realise that i really enjoy taking nature pix.. sunset, panoramic, flowers... even cactus... me not so good with potraits or ppl pix... tak dapat pun nak capture "moments" cam pro2 buat tuh... nanti la... kumpul duit dulu and browse around.. buy one good one... i think it will be sometime before i upgrade to dslr... maybe not sometime, a looooonnngggg time... heh

nanti la i post some of my fav flower pixs..

goodbye chris....

its soooo sad!!!! the guy that i hope will win this round American Idol.... was in the bottom 2 and do not hv enuf votes to stay on.... what a pity!!! he was talented and consistent the whole way but maybe luck is not at his side.... everybody thot he will be the final 2... even simon cowell pun cam ter"stunt" when the results are out... but, what to do kan...

no worries.... he's very2 talented and everybody can see that... he'll get offers for his own record soon.... i know even without the AI title, he will go far....

takde mood nak tgk american idol dah... everyweek i look fwd to see chris perform... now, no more chris... sob! sob!.... no more that deep, sexy, husky voice.... i shall wait for ur 1st album chris...

so, this entry is a tribute to u.... CHRIS DAUGHTRY....

Thanx mum!!

tomorrow is mother's day... well, actually we dont need to wait for Mother's Day to show appreciation and gratitude... but sometimes we dont realise that we actually take our mother for granted... slalu jer buat dia terasa hati... direct or indirectly... so, today.. i'm gonna do it formally in my blog... dedicated entry for the person who has done so much in my life...

i think without me realising it, my character building is very much influenced by her... her principles and stand in life.... growing up watching her strength to bring up the 3 of us has teach me a lot in facing difficulties in life... when we were small, she will try her very best to provide all that we need; even forgotting her needs... asalkan we all adik beradik grew up a normal life..

i was not close to her before... we had the same birth month... kalau ikut arwah nenek i dulu... relationship we all "panas"... alwiz disagree with each other... what she say, i'll do the opposite... maybe also bcoz i was close to my dad before the divorce... agaknya masa tu as a child, you dunno how to release your anger & confusion wif whats happening surrounding you... i end up becoming the "problem " child ... alwiz try to be far away from home.. rasa tak sedih pun bila kena pegi belajar jauh2... how immature kan..

as i grow older, esp masa kat UK... baru la pandai nak get close to her... mungkin sbb jauh... baru rasa thankful for all the things she has done before... dulu tak pandai nak appreciate; masa kat jb she would come and visit me almost every mth... driving fr kl to jb on sat (sbb masa tu cuti jb and kl tak sama) ... after subuh to reach jb by lunch and then ptg tu drive back to kl... dah la masa tu hway tak siap lagi... bawak food penuh kereta... thats how she is... not only feed her daughter but also the whole gang... heh...

tp i yg degil ni slalu la buat decision yg against her consent... i rasa tak tahu la dah berapa byk kali she got her high blood pressure bcoz of me... esp abt my love life la... i guess she wants me to hv a better life than her... well, mak mana yg tak nak... the thing that i appreciates most is how she tried not to barge into my private life but when i'm at my lowest point in my life... she'll be there and try giving her support indirectly... even when i've made the worst mistake, no blame word comes out of her... only positive words to push me fwd to face the future...

now we r closer... we go shopping, watch movie, gossipping... heh... most of my weekend i spend at home... maybe trying to replace all those time before... nway, she's getting old... i know she wants soooo much to see me settle down and hv my own family... i hope i can fulfil that wish cepat2... i wish God will provide me the means, energy and rezeki to provide her all the things that she dream to hv masa dulu2 (yg she sacrifice to provide for us)... i hope i will hv the strength and the patience (and a very understanding husband) to take care of her bila dia dah tak larat nanti...

mmg kalau nak ikutkan we cant afford to repay what our mother has done for us... terlalu banyak... well, who i am today partly is mould by her... my strength, compassion, the way i view life, the way i bring myself... all thanx to her.. and i'm really sorry that i alwiz find a way to hurt ur feelings... but, as a mother u'll alwiz find a part in ur heart to forgive me... i hope i'll be like you when i hv my own kids later... i know i've learn so much fr u without you realising...


THANK YOU MAMA FOR EVERYTHIN........

my new addiction...

besides obsession on my weight (heheh) ... i've got a new addiction... ni my brother la yg dok introduce... but, i think its the "in" puzzle game in town... well, what else... SUDOKU ler.... :D

mula2 tu cam tak berapa minat sbb tak tahu main... then when my bro at home, dok tgk la dia buat puzzle tu... and mcm senang jer... he taught me the rules and the trick... after a few games, bila dah dapat hang of it... keeup on trying one after another... its really a mind challenge... look simple but u really hv to use ur logical thinking... sapa yg terror probability should be good in this... bila dah sampai stage yg susah tu... imagine u hv filled up 95% of it and then suddenly realise somewhere along the line ada numbers yg salah coz u cant complete the puzzle.... kena la start again from scratch... tu yg bengang tu... but, the competitive side of u just wouldnt wanna let it go and stop... so, end up try again... and again... sampai dapat la...

to ppl who are clueless abt what i'm saying... below are some short explanation abt the game...
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From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia


Sudoku , also known as Number Place, is a logic-based placement puzzle. The aim of the puzzle is to enter a numerical digit from 1 through 9 in each cell of a 9×9 grid made up of 3×3 subgrids (called "regions"), starting with various digits given in some cells (the "givens"); each row, column, and region must contain only one instance of each numeral. Completing the puzzle requires patience and logical ability. Although the puzzle was first published in a U.S. puzzle magazine in 1979, it initially caught on in Japan in 1986 and attained international popularity in 2005.

GAMEPLAY

The puzzle is most frequently a 9×9 grid, made up of 3×3 subgrids called "regions" (other terms include "boxes", "blocks", and the like when referring to the standard variation; even "quadrants" is sometimes used, despite this being an inaccurate term for a 9×9 grid). Some cells already contain numerals, known as "givens" (or sometimes as "clues"). The goal is to fill in the empty cells, one numeral in each, so that each column, row, and region contains the numerals 1–9 exactly once. Each numeral in the solution therefore occurs only once in each of three "directions" or "scopes", hence the "single numbers" implied by the puzzle's name.

try it.... its fun!!!

my love for food...

... i noticed that there are a lot of interesting websites and blogs abt one's hobby... some of them even make their hobby into $$-making career... mcm wedding photojournalism

i was thinking along the line... bukan la nak shift career but to take my hobby seriously... i love cooking... for the same reason... I LOVE FOOD!!!! ada my fren dulu pernah kata, "camner la nak kurus, when only food lingers in ur mind"... i am passionate abt food, i can talk abt the food i like for hrs and hrs and hrs.... the taste, the smell, the color, the after-taste... apa2 la... sbb tu i suka berjalan2 dan mencari makan... heh

i'm not the choosy type... i regard myself quite adventurous in terms of food coz i don't limit my choices... i guess i'm the kind yg tak kisah berhabis on food if i feel its worth-it... i like cooking and see others enjoy eating what i cook.... spend hrs in the kitchen and my sweat is repaid when i see everythin's gone from the table...

i guess all those comes naturally in my family... family yg suka makan.... basically, makan je all the time... salah satu syarat nak masuk my family is to be able to REALLY EAT!!! heh... if u see all of them, u'll know the reason kenapa sorang2 besar cam "giant"... heh.. well, arwah nenek i yg train camtu... nak buat camne kan.. she's a great cook... and she'll cook each and everyone's fav dish when we go balik kampung.. all by herself.. dulu2 even coffee yg we all minum semua homemade... kuih2 tu tak payah cakap la... my arwah grandfather is very particular abt food... everything kena fresh... lauk tak boleh ulang-ulang.. really miss those old days *sigh*...

so, for my love of food... i'll be creating a special blog on F.O.O.D ... so, its gonna be anything relating to food... my eating out experience, recipes, cooking tips... etc... etc... etc...

so, tunggu dan lihat yaaaa.....
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update: the blog is up.... can either click "Bon Apetite" on the right hand side or go to

Alimento bueno... Personas felices... Para lo que más le puede pregunta?

what can u say...

... red face, fast heartbeat... and jadi kalut mcm apa jer... hmmm.... nay!!!... u're not having a crush... not at this age!!!! but, hey... what can u say right... heheh

actually there's this guy who works on the same floor (not same co though) that i like to look at... ONLY LOOK AT ok... no more than that.... bumped into him a few time... well, we work at the same floor kan.... but, just exchange glance and thats it ler... he's not really gorgeous or what... biasa jer but nice to look at... muka tak serabut... mcm ada calming effect... which i think makes him outstanding in the crowd... dunno whether he's married or not... or attached to anybody.. but, has seen a ring on his left hand... sure dah taken... tp takpelah... admire jer kan..

tadi, turun bawah nak beli coffee... masa keluar pintu tu nampak dia pun keluar gak... and he's also going towards the lift.... hmmm... imagine just the 2 of us in the lift... can only see his reflection kat pintu lift tu... the world seems extremely quiet... i just hope masa tu i won't embarrassed myself like i did before.. and at the same time i also wish i have that courage to say hi and start a conversation... or even to smile...

so... the opportunity just run by ler... for the xx many times dah... i'll be surprise with myself if i actually make that first move with a total stranger... coz its wayyyyyyy out of my character... dah la awak tu perempuan... mcm tak malu jer nak tegur guys camtu... but ppl say skarang ni dah modern... if u don't grab the chance, u may loose it.... hmmm...

is this why i'm still single till now?? ntah ler ekkk....